I think the only thing I've accomplished is to just drive around with a proverbial load of horseshit.
|I realize that these are mules and not horses. But, hopefully you get the idea.|
Now that I know I will not be the voice of my generation, hang my art in some great gallery, sing with a band, or do any of the other things I thought my enormous brain, my writing, my art, and my unique (hahaha) political philosophy, I need to just retire. I'm done with all that.
It's time to create for me. My own well-being depends on it and it's high time I get into shape.
Therapy through the years has allowed me to clear away some really crappy psychological clutter and I'm trying to upgrade a bit. One thing that I have a problem with is fighting my inner judge. This judge puts Judge Judy to shame with it's wit and it's forceful truths and leaves me stranded and drowning in unfinished business. So, it's time to shift my way of looking at my desires to do something creative and have fun.
|At one time, I held so much promise.|
There are three things that alleviate stress in my daily life: writing, creating art, and exercise. How weird to realize this. The problem all along is when I did these things with specific goals in mind, I hated them and these were the things I always put on the back burner thinking that if they weren't tied to big goals, then surely they were a waste of time.
I decided to take a more spiritual approach and do those things simply to do them. No strings attached.
So, here is where I practice my writing. It is mostly bad, definitely unedited, and stripped of any pretension. I merely want to write, to blog, to screw around on blogger. That is all.
I will also be putting some art into practice as well as exercise. All at a base level. I just know now that I need to do these things just for me. It's an experiment. We'll see what happens.
|I think I was more creative when I made fun of death.|
|Some of my best ideas involved dressing up for theme parties.|
|Attitude and a good haircut was all I needed at one time.|